1. Fear and shame are terrible motivators.
2. Honesty is the antidote to fear and shame.
3. Love conquers all.
We have a problem with fear and shame in this country. We have a problem with honesty. Nothing I can write on this blog is going to fix that.
For seven years, I have tried to model a belief in abundance rather than a fear of scarcity. I have shared some of my deepest vulnerabilities and fears in an effort to demonstrate that looking inward to confront our fear won't kill us and is, in fact, the only thing that can save us. Over and over again, I have reminded myself and my readers that love is an infinite resource. That there is enough of it to go around and that each and every one of us, by virtue of our basic humanity, deserves a fair share of it.
Or at least that's what I was trying to say. Probably it mostly just sounded like I spent a lot of time worrying about sports and boys and whether or not I was skinny enough.
Bertolt Brecht, a poet who was forced to flee Nazi Germany, wrote these lines:
What kind of times are they, when
A talk about trees is almost a crime
Because it implies silence about so many horrors?
I don't think I can write about fitness anymore.
This is not to say I'm giving up on my fitness goals. On Wednesday morning, one of my friends wrote on Facebook, "I'm going running. If I'm going to super blast my Care Bear rainbow-heart-flowing-hate-combating powers, I better be in the best shape I can be." The game has changed.
I know words matter now more than ever. Art matters. I hope I can find a way to write about things that matter. I hope I'll have an opportunity to share some of that writing with you at some point in the future. Until then, my friends, take care of yourselves and love everyone you can.
Thank you for reading. I love you.